Excited to introduce you to Alecia today. I met Alecia through the God-sized Dreams site. If you haven’t checked that out you should. It is such a place of encouragement and a supportive community as you follow the Lord and what He’s placed on your heart.
Alecia is a Southerner by birth (and grace) and gypsy by
marriage (she’s moved 7 times in the last 13 years). She writes to
encourage Christians to live differently because of the grace we’ve been shown
through Jesus. She has a heart to encourage others to get off the rocky
shore of self-doubt and sail into the life Christ has waiting for them. She is quiet by nature, introverted, quirky
and fiercely loyal (she becomes Mama Bear when someone messes with her people).
She will share her heart; story, struggles and her pain- just don’t ask her to
share her chocolate! You can connect
with her at her blog There’s Something Different, Twitter, or Facebook
Read Psalm 109
“O God, whom I praise, do not remain silent.”
For the last three years life, as I have known it, has been turned upside down. My husband took a job transfer to Iowa and moved on ahead while I stayed behind in Alabama with the kids to finish out the school year. Every natural disaster you can think of occurred while he was gone. First, we were snowed and iced in. And then, once the weather turned warm, we were hit with the deadliest string of tornadoes to hit the area in history.
We survived the tornadoes, finished the school year and joined my husband in Iowa. After a little over a year there we made another move, this time to Texas.
Can I just say? I think some people are born to thrive in climates of constant change; but I for one am not one of those people. I like routine and the same old thing. If I need a change I’ll go on a vacation thank you very much.
To say I was needy would be an understatement…I was flat out desperate. My body went into survival mode and has refused to come out even though life is pretty normal now. This has been my life for the last three years and I have never been more needy or desperate for God to stand by my side and feel like he is holding my hand and walking me through each day.
A year later I still find myself not adjusting to life in Texas as well as I would like. My heart longs to go home to be closer to all that’s familiar. But God has been impressing upon me, “not yet.”
He has work for me to do in Texas and I have been resisting and refusing.
Depression has slowly moved in on me like a thick dense fog. The kind that makes it hard to see good coming out of anything.
“For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me. I fade away like an evening shadow…Help me, O Lord my God; save me in accordance with your love.” -Psalm 109:22, 23, 26
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My mind accuses and places guilt upon me, for not being stronger and having more faith, but God lovingly reminds me I am His and to take his burden for it is lite to bear.
“For he stands at the right hand of the needy one, to save his life from those who condemn him” (Psalm 109:31). I read these verses again and then one more time.
He has been reassuring this weak and weary heart that I don’t have to walk alone and weighed down. I only need to keep my eyes on Him and each day just take the next step. I close my eyes and I picture Jesus standing next to my right side, gently grabbing a hold of my hand and walking through this fog with me. Step by step he is there reassuring me with his eyes and smile that together we will make it to the other side. We’re slowly walking out of this overwhelming darkness. The fog has lifted some and light is starting to break through.
I am so overwhelmed by His love and grace that I know, come what may, He will never leave my side. Thank you, sweet Jesus, for always being willing to hold the hand of the needy one.
Dependent on Him,
1. Reread Psalms 109
2. How does this psalm bring you comfort for the dark places in your life? Use some of these verses as a prayer to God to help and comfort you in need.
3. How can we pray for you today? Consider leaving a prayer request in the comments and we will join you in lifting it before the Lord. If you aren’t comfortable sharing publicly you can just put “unspoken”.