I like to arrive; to get where I am going. I don’t necessarily like the journey to get there. When I am presented with direction I want to run to the destination, I easily become consumed with the outcome and numb to other things that stand in the way of it.
It is hard for me to just take one step towards what God has called me to- I want to run and just get there, to skip over the hike there and just be there. If I had my way I’d beam over to the destination- but then I would miss the challenging and rewarding bends in the journey, wouldn’t I? Walking the rocky path of maturity that leads to the mountain view of His Glory. This morning as I ran jogged I listened to the song, Lead of Love, by Caedmon’s Call,
All that I was so afraid of
Though I questioned the sky, now I see why
Had to walk the rocks to see the mountain view
Looking back I see the lead of love”
Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.”
You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.
I had been avoiding taking the next step that we needed to with our adoption. Sounds crazy that I would do this since I can’t wait to have our baby home (again wanting the destination before taking all the steps in the journey). The next step was to buy a baby carseat and stroller. Why would I avoid this step? I am not sure. I think part of it was trying to protect myself; knowing that once we got it I would be able to picture the baby even more and might even be tempted to go for a run jog with it empty (and might be labeled crazy if I did so). But whatever the reasons that were stopping me from taking this step- last night we took the step! I feel so good about it. We are ready now to go pick up baby -whenever we are chosen and get the call to come. It feels great… more excited (if that is possible) than ever about baby and it feels like even more of a reality now that we have what we need.
I just needed to take this next step- this next step of faith- to not fear, freak or fret- just breathe deep and trust God again with my heart, and remember adoption was His idea and He is here with us on this journey.
P.S. While in the store, I was tempted to ask a very pregnant mom (with her 3 kids in tow) if she wanted us to raise her baby. Hubby reminded me I could get arrested for such activity.:)
Challenge: Just take the next step He is asking you to. That’s it. It could be a little step, it may be big; but take that step; don’t delay. This faith journey is an adventure, don’t miss out by turning around, taking too long of a rest, or sneaking in a short cut. Stay on the path of Truth and embrace the journey.
